Sunday, August 22, 2010


Something happened to my blog background and I'm having trouble getting a new one. typical me. Promise I will get it fixed up asap. 10 more sleeps until the new place! Woooo! Things are getting a little wonky with all the arrangements we are making for the big move but I've been staying on track!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Back on the healthy wagon

I had to yell, run, and leap... for awhile I even hung off the end and drug my feet for a few miles... BUT I am back on the healthy wagon. No more excuses! I CONTROL what I put in my mouth afterall... This time I am staying on the wagon and on track to my goal. Eventually I will get there. I have lost 29 pounds in roughly 7 monthes. Thats about 4 pounds a month. I would have liked to have done a little better and actually meet my goals but I WILL do it!

Last time I posted that I had been living the slump life and thats true... but I have been doing a lot better since. No more junk and a lot more moving. Last Wednesday I weighed 234.4 and this morning.... 228.6! Thats 5.8 pounds in a little over a week. I was happy to see it come back off... cleaning up the bad habits is paying off already and I couldn't be happier.

I need to keep moving in the right direction. 12 more sleeps until the man and I move to our new place and on September 7th I start classes at my new school. I am hoping losing some of the excess weight will help me feel better about myself I must continue to to improve my self confidence so the new surroundings don't stress me out too much. It really is time to get healthy. I must set a good example for my future students also. A happy, healthy, and active lifestyle!

I have been reading along but I do have a little catching up and commenting to do.

YEE-HAW!!! See you on the wagon!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Living the Slump Life

Yep, that's me! In fact I think I am slinking into a slight depression. I have not been eating or feeling well. On that note, my cat isn't either and actually has feline kidney stones. I can't bear the thought of losing her... she has been with me through a tough 9 years and means the world to me. Hopefully she will pull through... I know my savings aren't going to though.

On the weight front. I weighed 230 yesterday so while I am not eating well.. I am not doing completely horrendously. Although I did manage to eat like half a litre of ice cream and doritos in one sitting a couple of days ago :(

I know I have to straighten up... I really want to have the confidence I need when I start a new school in September. Afterall meeting people isn't easy when you are ashamed of yourself... Must make self proud...

Friday, July 9, 2010

Living out of a Suitcase...

...until September... UGH I don't recommend it but it is happening. Weighed in at 229 this morning. I don't even know where my camera or scale are (PACKED) so I had to use someone elses. It's not easy when you are living on the go... I'm dissapointed in myself though honestly... UGGHHHH!!!! Hopefully we are off to the grocery store tonight to grab a couple healthy groceries...

Hope everyone is well and healthy

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Summer Challenge Update

Weighed in Friday at 225.

Sorry I didn't get to post until now. I've had my nephew all weekend and he just drifted off. What a cute little handful...

Still no word on the new apartment. I've been at my sisters all weekend on account of having my nephew and we are planning on finishing the packing this week. We can't stay at the cuurent place ANY longer. Mould just isn't healthy...

Thursday, June 24, 2010


Any male audience can feel free to skip this post. HAH!

It is that special time :(...If I were a normal human being I would not post this or make a big deal, but since I get roughly about two a year... they are ultra bad (painful) and horrific. Cancel that good weigh in for this week and get ready to see a rise instead I think... Yiiikkeesss!

It is like I don't know how to deal with the urges that accompany this "special time" because I am not used to it... so I caved big time... I already managed to eat a pasta bread bowl, a couple packs of chocolate covered pretzels and some cream soda. Yes I know its terrible... but I wanted it sooo very bad and I slipped. Oh well thats the past... time to try and run damage control now I guess

On the good news front... we applied for an apartment that we like last night (before the slip) and we will hear back tomorrow whether they choose us for it. We are trying to not get our hopes up but its hard because we really like it... enough to wait until September?.. and enough to move temporarily back home with our parents to escape this mold hell? Stay tuned...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Stroller Naps = Really Sore Feet

Ok, I am on my feet a lot in regular life [I don't drive so I either walk or take the bus if my desired location is too far away (I can't afford insurance or drive Ryans standard)] but... stroller naps really do equal nice sore feet.

The child I am minding and I went for a really nice long walk together and I think it really did me some good. He slept like an angel and I walked very fast like a fool in the heat and humidity. I also took him to spend a couple hours with my fantastic niece and nephew and they adored him. We have logged quite a few miles between yesterday and today :) I also walked 15-20 minutes both ways to the home where I sit each day too... It does feel really good to get some great exercise.

Also on the news front: The new battery fixed my scale problem right up so hopefully I will have a good loss to report on Friday. Hooray!

See you soooon :)

Monday, June 21, 2010

Job Prospect Gloom & Solution


Well after searching for nearly a month for a job and not finding one... I have decided I am going to focus on childcare instead. Money is money afterall.. so starting today I am going to start caring for a cute 8 month old.

ANINI?! What has this to do with weight loss?!

Well he is a very mobile 8 month old... like he is really just about running... so I will have my work cut out for me chasing after that little guy and I also won't have as much time for mindless eating. Well that is the plan anyway...haha. This is a full time position for the summer, and there are other parents needing similar care for their I am working on putting together a nice little group to try and get some income together. Not to mention I really do like hanging out with kids and trying to entertain them so it just may work out.

On the scale front... I only tried one place but the battery I need was sold out but they should be getting another shipment this week so stay tuned!

Well I really must go shovel in some breakfast. It feels like a fibre one and banana morning! See ya soon!

*** image BORROWED from

Friday, June 18, 2010

Frustration Friday

Scale difficulties this morning. When I went for my morning pee, I discovered Maddie sleeping on my scale. I didn't think anything of it but just scooped her up and kicked her out of the bathroom. I stepped on a few minutes later and low and behold... it read 163! That would mean a 62 lb loss...soo... not likely! haha so I got off and tried again with it reading 180 something.

I took the battery out soon after and put it back in and stepped back on it... said 184. GRRR Ridiculous! Its an electronic scale so I don't really know what else to do/try with it... I wonder if a new battery will help because the edges of the numbers do look kinda faded?... Maybe with Maddie sleeping on it, and shifting around... she wore out the battery? I did just replace it a short time ago...If a new battery doesn't work then I guess I will have to buy a new one and keep it off the floor.. [sigh!]

Wednesday the scale told me 223.4... so that is good news at least. Next week a picture of the/a scale for sure... even if I have to go to Ryans parents place bright and early... haha...[yiiikkkess!]

Water [B+] 6/7 days satisfactory
Excercise [B] 3/7
Tracking [B-] 4/7 (needs improvement)

Healthy thoughts going out to everyone this weekend!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Sore Tootsies never felt sooo good!

Just a note to say that all is going well. The apartment search lives on also. Many viewings coming up for what I hope to be some great apartment opportunities.I can hardly wait to get out of here... its a hot mess with boxes stacked everywhere!

On the weight loss front,I peeked at the scale and it told me good things which is quite encouraging (even if its a bad habit). I also nagged Ryan to take me out for a nice long walk and now my feeties hurt. Also he told me that my face looks skinnier so thats exciting!

I think my initial weight loss goal of being on one-derland by the end of July may have been pushing it a little... okay a lot. Sometimes the scale can be very stubborn even when things are going right so WE have got to keep this in mind. I will be very happy if I make it to one-derland by the end of the summer with the big move and all so that is my new and more realistic goal. Just 26 pounds to go!

I keep telling myself that I can do this if I work hard!! I think I can.. I think I can...

I can! I just got to believe...

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Update and also feeling revitalized


Just me poking my head in again. Had a small loss this week of .4. I wish it had been better but I have still been eating on the run and not doing a great job of staying on plan. This means I am down just 3.4 pounds down so far in the challenge but I shall strive to behave myself this week! I PROMISE. Just because I am crazy and stressed.. does not mean I am going to give myself an excuse to slack off! Noooo more!!

We are desperately looking for a new place and have packed a lot of things away into storage on account of the dismal conditions here in this sh*thole (please pardon my language but I'm feeling pretty frustrated) and it has left me feeling run down until now. We are in a huge crunch to get out of here on account of the mold discovery and who I can only describe as lazy slumlords.

On a good note, the good computer is back home with us so I can actually post pictures and more often now. Also on a good note... I just got back from the grocery store with a lot of good food and produce and have a lot of good meals planned for this week already... so I predict a good week this week. AND furthermore great news... we have a viewing set up in a great neighbourhood for an okay price... so we shall see how that goes!

I am feeling excited and revitalized... Woohoo!!!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Soooo busy

Very sorry to say I haven't blogged much lately. I did manage to remember to weigh in Friday and discovered a loss of 1.2 pounds. Not great, but a loss nonetheless.

Still eating pretty well while job and apartment hunting but the man and I have kicked it into high gear (the apartment hunting...) as there was just a mold discovery in our current... How wonderful. With that in mind I am off to a viewing... See you all around (soon I hope!)

Friday, May 28, 2010

Friday Weigh In: A First

Hello all,

Not much going on in Anini-land. I have still been looking for an apartment for my boyfriend and I and of course a job for meee. I assure you I have been on track, and reading along with you all but I haven't had much to say/report on and the good computer is in the shop :(

My Friday Report Card (a new feature)

Water: I have been drinking lots, but still need to get some more in (B-)

Exercise: Only got in 3 workout days in, but it's a start (B)

Tracking Points: I will admit I haven't been recording regularly (F)

OKAY, I'm improving.. Next week I want A's!!

Now... On to the Summer Challenge...

Weighed in Monday at 229 after my terrible weekend...
Today I'm at...

227.2. So I'm down 1.8 for the challenge...

but overall in my regular Friday Weigh In's this means I am up 1.6... so I regret to inform you that I have had my first gain week since February. Even though I did so while I had a great graduation celebration with my lovelies... it still makes me sad BUT I do not regret it happened. So onward and upward...well downward I hope

With that in mind... I am off to get on the treadmill (Oh boy!)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Summer Challenge Weigh In

A day late. I know what you are thinking (tsk..tsk.. Anini!) but the Internet has been acting so strange here since Sunday).

And here it is after a weekend of celebrating my first degree:

Yeah 229. I'm not proud of that but it happened. I didn't want to turn down celebratory parties, dinner and drinks with the people I love and so I have paid the price. I still did eat well but just too much of it (and half a piece of cheesecake)... Hopefully I can work through the weekend gain through the week or I might be reporting my very first Friday gain since Feb!

P.s I neeeed a pedicure

Anywhoo its miserable here so I'm headed for my treadmill and a nice big bottle of water...

Self Love Thought:

I love that I am attempting to turn this around. I love that I have accepted current self but working towards a healthier and happier me. This weekend I had enough confidence to not shy away from pictures with my lovlies and was actually able to look into the lens of a camera instead of covering my face in mortification.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Back and stronger than EVER

Dear fellow bloggies.

I appologize for the hiatus. I assure you I have been poking around and reading but have not felt like my normal self. I am still on the mend from this annoying flu/cold thing but I assure you I am coming back and I will be stronger than ever. Sorry I have not been posting my self love thoughts everyday but I have been still telling myself what a great woman I am (haha that just sounds wrong)and defining why each day I should be proud of myself and love myself. It's been a little harder to look in the mirror and tell myself how great I am when my face looks gray but I have been keeping it up!

Todays thought occurred to me while getting dressed and all on its own without my attempt to search for my own positive reflection on myself (however please excuse my moment of vanity)

"Hey! My butt is rockin' in these 34's... I really am doing this!.. Next stop 32's!"

30 pounds can make quite a difference and I finally caught myself by suprise. I knew they fit as of last week but I finally SAW it myself.. Haha... I was actually going to take a picture of the 'rearview' but the camera was dead this a.m (to help me remember how it felt, and how excited I was... not because I would like to show my sweet can off.. haha)

I have decided I have been dragging my butt for too long. I have been indulging in far too many calories (nothing too dramatic but still too many snacks). I have not been exercising to my potential (or even close). I have not been preparing enough actual home cooked meals and if it wasn't for subway right down the street I would have made some terrible choices I think. BUT the past is the past and I'm ready to step this up.

It is time to make some goals. It is time to give it my all.

New Goals:

1) More water. At least 5 large glasses a day (Just bought my new Brita and I have been loving it)

2) Ensure exercises/workouts at LEAST 4 days a week (Got the treadmill all set up again)

3) Post pics of my scale each week (hopefully my cpu will comply)

4) Count my points & record everyday (I have been slaaaacking)

5) Cut way down on diet pop (max 2 glasses a day)

On that note: I am joining a new challenge. Kandice, at No More Chunky Dunking, Time To Skinny Dip is holding a summer challenge and I am in!

It starts Monday May 24, and I will be posting my starting weight then :) It might be a little higher after this weekend. Apparently there is a party in my honor coming up on account of my graduation Friday so I will be a bit off plan for a couple days (without going major overboard I assure you).

Weigh ins will continue as usual to be posted every Friday. I always come post the update on the right side regardless of whether I post that day or not.

My goal is to be in ONEderLAND before the end of July (but hopefully sooner). I peeked at the scale and that leaves 25 pounds to go in roughly 10 weeks. Thats 2.5 pounds a week and if I work really hard I am hoping to get there. I was going to set it for the end of August but at just under 2 lbs a week I am not sure if that is challenging enough considering my regular loss is about 1.5.

Anyhowwwss... thats it for now :) Stay tuned!!! I plan on reporting in as much as I can to actually report how I have done each week. I must keep myself accountable! No more skipping off to lala land and ignoring my laziness...

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


Just a note to say I woke up Sunday with the stomach flu. On that note I had to come home early this weekend and haven't been eating much or making much of an effort to do much... Yikes!.. I'm still not feeling so hot but I'm buzzing around reading blogs and doing some catch up instead :)

Todays thought:
I love that I'm taking the time to look inside myself for good, instead of only looking for it in others like before.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

A Loss! Also: Headed off for the weekend

I'm just heading off to a friends cottage for the rest of the weekend with a few close friends and wanted to drop by first and report my 1.2 lb loss for the week! I'm quite pleased with that but hoping for a better loss for next week.

Now it's time to remind myself to be on my best behavior:

1)Limit my alcohol intake
2)Limit caloric and treat intake.
3)Get in some good outdoor exercise (We're going on one of our geocaching adventures Sun weather permitting..haha.. don't judge me. Its fun and can be good exercise!)

Newest self love thought (I think this should count)

I love that I have such good taste in friends. I am no longer allowing myself to have acquaintances whom I believe harbour negative thoughts about me. No artificial friendships for me. I do truly have some great supporters. I don't know what I would do without them :) You guys are included in this too of course. Thanks for all the support you've given me!

Thanks for reading,
See you Monday!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Oooh La La Update!


Yes Sir'ee Bob! This previous ill-fitted, unbuttonable pant is now buttonable. A little snug for regular wear right now, but hopefully in five pounds or so they will be ripe for the wearing! They were probably about 4/5 inches from buttoning so I assume that this is a NSV for Anini. A funny one, but one nonetheless!

The pink sweater you see is my newest-most-favorite sweater. It was a splurge for my unemployed self at $58.00, but I bought it anyways! So I plan on getting a lot of wear out of it. I'm hoping the sleeves will shorten up a bit in the dryer because they are pretty long.

I think I have been doing quite well in the eating department for the last few days after the weekend houseguest incident. Just about a full recovery but the bad munchie vibe is still lingering....

I have been doing a lot of walking the past few days. It has been sooo nice outside so I have been taking full advantage of it. I walked on a beautiful trail yesterday and wanted to take pictures of the sun setting on the ocean but forgot the camera in the car. Hopefully next time I won't be a doofus and forget so I can share it with you all. Today it is supposed to rain sooo maybe the treadmill will be my friend :(. ALSO on the beautiful trail yesterday I did some jogging sporadically for a minute or so at a time. So probably only 5-10 minutes worth but it felt good!! I am looking forward to going a little further in the jogging department soon.

If all goes well I am hoping to not see a gain this week even with my baaaad weekend.

The self pampering went well yesterday. I had did a nice facial, pedicure, soak, and manicure for myself. I spent extra time just enjoying doing the extra things for myself that I don't normally take the time to do. I spent quite a bit of time reading as well and just enjoying the peace and quiet. I even squeezed in a nap before running out to get subway with the man (you didn't expect me to ruin my hard manicure work did you?) and having a wonderful and long walk.

This is Maddie watching me have my footbath/pedicure. She just was spayed last week and she has been trying to pull out her still undissolved stitches so thats why she is wearing that dreadful cone!

**Reminder that I cannot get the dumb timestamp on my camera to go away.. Sorry!**

These are my finished and pampered feet. If you look closely you shall see I EVEN took the time to use my spacers for painting my toenails! I know I am worth the extra few minutes to take my time and do it right! Also I went with pink this time. Usually I actually really like to do very small french tips but I was feeling the pink today.. Haha..

Well I will leave you with my self love thought and I am off to make some breakfast because my tummy is growling!

Todays Self-Love Thought:

I love how brave I am.

I am attempting to live my dream. I have anxiety, but I am stronger than it. I will not let fear of failure stand in the way anymore. I can be happy, healthy, and make a difference in the world. I will achieve

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Lovin' Me for Me!!

Stripped of all make up, no need for fancy clothes
No cover ups, push ups
....I dont have to put on a show.


Today I am taking a day for me. Selfish sounding? I don't think so... I just want to be closer to myself. I want to be able to walk into a room and hold my head high and not ridden with anxiety. I want to define what my goals are in life for myself. I want to know I am worth it.

Because I am

Everyday in the Month of May I have decided to come up with a reason to love myself.

Need a self esteem adjustment? Then join me. I doouuuble dare ya!

Here I am. Rockin' the look for today:

Todays Reason for Loving Myself:

I love myself because I am amazed by my own inner strength.

-It has been a rough week, but at the end of the day... I know I have to continue being myself. It is the only true option.

Monday, May 3, 2010

I hate having houseguests/Eviction Notice

What a terrible weekend. Let me just say in advance... do not let people come stay with you because the effects last longer than their stay. Certain people, with their certain lifestyles need to stay OUT! Things got out of control:

That's right Doritos. GET OUT!!! Certain foods will no longer be welcome in my house... you know who you are...

Also on a relevant note: I am a very friendly person, and I love having good friends come stay with me... but I did in all fairness tell them that my kitchen is a clean eating kitchen now. I did not want filth in my fridge. But it was brought with them And now I went and ate it. Because it was there. And now all I seem to want to do is eat junk. RAHHHH!!!

But now the out of towners are gone, and the food is still here. So now I have to forcefully evict it all.. Cheesy -YES. Necessary -YES.

But this junk that is in my fridge seems to have devastating effects on me. It can take DAYS/WEEKS to get this addiction to stop. Some people just do not care what they eat like and continue to eat like this and be disrespectful to my wishes ... in my kitchen. No I did not come right out and say this because I did not want to look like a maniac... but I really feel like I need to let people know I can't handle junk around. I need a clean place just like addicts do.

I leave you with this article to peruse at your own leisure. It's not long. It presents interesting thoughts on the food as addiction argument.

Pffft! What did my Addictions prof know when he said he doesn't consider food an addiction? Maybe the view presented here might help certain 'visitors' understand how I feel.. Maybe I should print it off for my fridge to prevent further harm from being deposited there.

Now please excuse me while I go clean my fridge.
Thanks I'm glad we talked :)

The regular normal Anini will be back later

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Oh Snap Outta It!

Dearest Fellow Bloggies,

Somebody smack me. Somebody tell me to stop the destructive eating behavior. I always thought with final exams wrapping up my eating problems would be the worst... but it turns out after them.. my eating is even worse.

I thought my 25 pound mark was something that would make me feel accomplished, determined and proud but it hasn't helped me at all. UGH!

I am so bored. I am sitting here flipping through apartment listings and job listings (and of course everyones blogs). It's pretty terrible when you need both a job and an apartment. I'm feeling homeless, schooless (because I am starting another new venture), and unemployed. It sucks!

I haven't strayed TOO far from plan and have avoided an all out binge but it's been a rough few days. I have eaten a few offplan things that I haven't accounted for... for example: A couple bites of fried chicken(today) (I don't even like that!!?!!), a couple bites of coleslaw(today), A glass of pepsi (Friday), A burger king milkshake(Sat)... Some things have been figured into my daily point values... Some haven't...

I won't be suprised if there is a gain this week. I know this behavior needs to stop but even the crappy after feeling isn't fixing my slump.

I just don't know how to enjoy having some free time (and allow myself to get over this bad cold). The weather has been lousy. I have barely left the house for a few days except for groceries Monday and a Sunday drive (I had to get out even though it was SNOWING all day!!?!!). It is actually supposed to be sunny and warm tomorrow.

Time to brave the outside world again.
Time to enjoy life again.
There is more to it then sitting home and stuffing my face.

Yeah I think thats all.

Goodnight Blog (Time to get some shut eye)

Friday, April 16, 2010

Another 2.8 GONE :)

Dearest Blog:

Down another 2.8 this week. It feels great. Next week I'd like to be entering the 220's! I haven't been on that route for awhile... but I hope I don't overstay my welcome there either.

I've worked pretty hard this week, but not hard enough because I have been ZONKED from school wrapping up. I must establish some sort of regular exercise regime. I've really been procrastinating signing up for something.

That's right! I'm gonna KEEP ON TRUCKIN'!! Hope ya'll do the same.
See you soon!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

My Jeans Ripped!!!

I was walking up the stairs when IT HAPPENED...I never thought I would be so happy to say that my pants ripped!!... but the reason they ripped was because I was holding them up by the belt loops to keep them from falling down (and exposing myself because they are very loose even when they were straight from the dryer)....and I heard the teaaarring noise.


I'm delighted. Must shop this weekend :) Needless to say I had to pull my shirt over the top of my pants for the rest of the day and avoid the stairs.... Buuuutt at least I can make myself spend money on myself this weekend without guilt because I actually do need some now!

Friday, April 9, 2010

A Loss!

I am so pleased with a loss of 1.8 this week. I had prepared myself to expect a gain from my chocolate slip up this week and lack of tracking. I want to have a really good week this week though so I get closer to my challenge goal so I have got to work hard this week!

On another note: I got into every school I applied to for my Bachelor of Education. I am in a state of disbelief and walking around feeling stunned... Now I don't know what one to choose. I am going to put off decision making until late next week to take the pressure off for exams and just try and feel good this week! Excercise helps relieve my stress and thats the plan :)

See you soon!

Thursday, April 8, 2010


Dearest Blog:
Well I have got to say that I have been a naughty weight watcher this week. First week of the program that I have neglected to track. I have prepared myself to see a gain on the scale tomorrow. Annoying but I guess I have got to see it staring back at me to really make it click in!

I have been gorging on a lot of chocolate this week. (The man put the chocolate in my easter basket, I swear I would never have brought the enemy into my own house...I know better!)It's less than I would have eaten before so that's good, but I still must must must stop! The man has been away this week in Cuba for his sisters wedding and I have been stressing over last minute school wrap ups... so I think it has been a mix of lonely and stress eating. BUT I AM stopping!

On that note I have decided to take Tammy up on her weight loss challenge!

YES!! I will try as hard as humanly possible to get 10 pounds off by April 30th while competing with my exam schedule! It would be the ultimate to succeed in this and show myself that I CAN do this despite any distractions (I am a baaaad eater while studying but have been showing slight improvements). There are some tough changes and challenges coming... I can feel it... so I would really really like to succeed with this. Thanks Tammy!!(She really has been doing SO amazing.It's inspiring)

Until tomorrow morning,

Wednesday, March 31, 2010


Dear Blog.

Yes, relaxing was the key. The news happened when I least expected it. Today!!

I got into my first choice University/Graduate School. This city girl will be packing her bags and heading to a country school for some new experiences this fall. I'm thrilled!

I must continue learning how to relax.I'm taking some Yoga classes this summer before the big move. I must find some inner peace and relaxation.

Thanks for the support and advice :) The weather is supposed to warm up here very soon. This weekend we will have double digits!(celsius) and I'm hitting the trails!

See ya on Friday with the WI results!!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010


Hello blog?!

Yes I've been away. Yes it's been too long. The good news? I've been staying on track even though I am having the freakout of a lifetime. Some minor setbacks sometimes (like eating 2 100 cal pks of pretzels and whatnot, but I have stopped after and made myself realize I have just squandered 4 points.. Bad Anini!)

I am finding it harder to stay within my daily points, and even struggling to stay within my flex points! I just want to eat all the time lately! But I've been doing well anyway.

Lost 2.2 last week, and it is hopefully going to be a successful week this week also...

I've been very sick with the flu and it's been draining all my energy for over a week now. I slept 14 hours straight today. School is coming to an end for me. Papers are popping up all around me. It's frightening because they just may be my last..

Exams ahead. Stress ahead. I haven't gotten into any schools for next year yet. It's a scary feeling to not know what you are doing next year. Sometimes I hate the University life, but I desperately want to teach... So I just keep telling myself that it WILL happen... I keep telling myself I will not have a binge because I am stressed..

Oh, and blog?
I have missed you..
See you Friday for the WI!

Friday, March 19, 2010


Dearest Blog

Sorry I have not been around much blog. Things have been crazy dearest blog but I promise I have been keeping myself on track. My last semester of university is winding down and I have been very stressed, and very tempted on the eating scene. I find myself in a room with my friends and see what they are eating, and find myself wondering why I can't have that? Its not even really bad food, but the points would be bad so I steer away... I resist...

I have been very very stressed about getting into another school for next year and sometimes I feel like its just not going to happen, but I must not console myself with food. Right blog? With that said I am supposed to head out for a few drinks with the girls tonight but I will hopefully contain myself. The terrible thing is that I am a smirnoff ice fan, the points there will/would be disastrous...

I worked hard this week, but apparently not hard enough. A .2 loss for me even with actually attempting to earn some fitness points. I haven't really done anything different except a few really long walks so I am not sure why the dissapointing loss, but I can't let it hold me back from continuing to do my best this week!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Busy Busy Busyyyy...

I hadn't realized it had been a week since my last post, but it has. BAD Anini! Anywhoooo, I am proud to announce a 3.6 lb loss this week! That is great! I used a lot of my flex points (24), and its my TOM so I am a bit surprised but none-the-less I will take it!

I am very proud and excited to say that I have behaved very well this week. I have been really busy with school and while studying for midterms... I didn't shove unhealthy snacks in my face. Get this... I actually thought about it first and I asked myself "Am I really hungry?" My stomach answered yes, so I went and made a nice salad and ate that while cramming. The bad news is... I did really horrible on my geography exam.(but great on my Addictions exam!) I did study! Maybe not as hard as I should have but my professor expects waaay to much and it is an intro level class! With staying so busy with school (and all the work I have coming up in the next few days) I have to find the time to go grocery shopping, laundry, and housework. GROAN! It's a constant struggle.

Goals for next week:
-Include more fibre in my day!
-Drink more water!
-Start getting more excercise (walking,treadmill!)
-Find new and interesting recipes

I bought myself new workout pants. Nice black capri's that are sooo soft. I am so looking forward to wearing them. This lady I know teaches Yoga and I have really wanted to join in, but I haven't had nice work out clothes and also there is the sweat gland problem previously described. I'm not a big sweater, but I can't wear any deoderant because it clogs/swells my armpit pores. I have to find an alternative route for that before I work out in public I think. Any deoderant alternatives you can suggest?

Its supposed to be really beautiful tomorrow so I think my boyfriend and I are going to hit the trails and go for a nice really long walk. It will certainly be a nice paper-writing break. Well there we have it, not a great interesting post, but an update! I'm not feeling very creative and any creativeness I do have is being poured into my million papers...

Friday, March 5, 2010

Feeling Great!

Hello Fellow Bloggies,

Here is a picture of my breakfast, it was my first time making a smoothie but it was delicious! In case you want to make one here is the recipe for the simple yet delicious smoothie:

Strawberry Banana Smoothie

1 Banana
4 large strawberries
1/4 C yogurt (I used FF Strawberry & Gogi Berry)
3/4 C Ice
1 tsp sugar (optional of course)

Blend well, Drink it Up!

I am not sure whether this would be considered 3 or 4 points, but nonetheless it was delish and made about 2 cups so you could drink it all for a meal or split it up.

I am changing my weigh ins to Fridays for now on. I am hoping perhaps seeing a loss on Friday might renew my enthusiasm so I am not tempted to slip up on the weekends. Also one of my fellow Weight Watchers bought me a 3 month journal and a bunch of books for my birthday, so I am dying to start my week off todayyy!

From Monday to now, I had a loss of 1.8 lbs, which is surprising with the birthday slipups I had on Tuesday (Ice cream cake, Lasagna, and Broccoli Salad) annnndd last night at the grocery store I bought a small bag of chocolate covered raisens and devoured them while watching Survivor (GO Villians!). Yes it was bad of me, but I am back on the track to victory I hope! (GO Anini!)

Have a Fantastic Weekend!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


Hello fellow bloggies,

Sorry I have been away for a little while, but alas I have returned.

So the interview came on Saturday, and I walked in there and did my best. I learned that there were over 350 applicants for just 65 Elementary spots. I don't think that I did great because I was really nervous but I won't find out for 4-6 weeks anyhow. I have applied to other schools also (some of which I would like to get into even more) so I'm not that freaked out yet. I just keep telling myself "Nini Breath! You WILL get into a teaching program SOMEWHERE..."

Monday I had my weigh in. Another 1.4 lbs down, for a total of 11.8. Of course I wasn't particularly pleased when I had expected perhaps a bit more... but I haven't been doing a lot of exercise lately on account of the infected sweat gland. That is just about healed though so I will hopefully be stepping it up again really soon after I am in the clear.

THEN...IT...HAPPENED... Suddenly upon arriving home from school, I was ambushed... Aflame with 24 candles, it came towards me... (Imagine my surprise receiving a cake after I had specifically asserted that I wanted to skip it this year.)

I blew them out, knowing that in front of me was a very dangerous situation and also wishing that when I looked down again it would just disappear. I looked down and what sat there?

AN ICE CREAM CAKE?!! Yes its true. I did have a piece out of guilt that someone went through the trouble of getting one, but I didn't enjoy it!... Okay maybe I did, but I am vowing that I will be having just the one piece. God only knows how many points that was. Yes I am obsessed once I start counting... I cannot stop!

Nonetheless, I am sending it away this evening. I cannot be trusted alone with its delicious nature. Not to mention that I mayyy have had a VERY small piece of lasagna and a couple bites of broccoli salad.

How do you handle those 'birthday moments?'

Thursday, February 25, 2010


Wait! Before you run away at the mention of looking at more of my terrible 'befores'... I promise they are not as terrible as before! Thanks for the comfort on the last ones Tammy :)

Well I have been shopping for an outfit and it brought a loooot of mixed feelings. I am the biggest I have ever been to my knowledge. A size 18! (XL,XXL) I am happy however because I am already beginning to work on my eating and weight issues and am devoted to change. So here goes a few pictures of my outfit if you are interested. It is not what I had in mind but I decided to go with pants because I got an awesome deal on them!

Entire outfit purchased at Ricki's (
Pants 10$ (were originally 59.99 but marked wayyy down)
White Blouse 35.50
Green 3/4 length sweater 39.50

Total 96.05

Not great for my unemployed student budget but I think I will get use out of the blouse and the sweater.Also I did resist buying a new purse which I need desperately!

Wooden Jewellery was 6.99 at a small cheap jewellery store. I hope it matches ok.

Black Bow Kitten Heels (Payless 5 years ago)

Do the pants look an ok length?They are the short variety. I am actually 5'10 but I have really short legs and a long torso.
And if you can see well enough to judge, do the shoes match ok?

Last picture is just for fun really. I plan on wearing my hair down and actually wearing makeup but I just haven't gotten around to doing it yet today (It is "Study Break" afterall...)

What do you think of it? Any comments are welcome. Sorry for going on about clothing for an entire entry but I need input if anyone has any. All my girls are gone away for winter break and I don't want to look like a freak. Haha!

Oh and one confession: I peeked at the scale early again! I have GOT to stop doing that! Even though it said I was down another 1.5 pounds, I will wait until Monday for the 'official' recording

Thanks for reading/listening to my long outfit anxiety!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I just want to feel good in my own skin...

How sad, I cannot remember the last time I have felt good in my own skin. Maybe childhood when I was filled with happiness,innocence and running free? Maybe after I finished one of those yo-yo diets and I felt good about myself?(comfortably seated in one-derland...)

With this in mind, I am more determined than ever to win the battle with the mirror, the scale, myself. I will love myself again. I will!

I have gone through my wardrobe and cannot find anything to wear in there for my school interview, so I have to go shopping for an outfit. Everything is too small or too old and worn looking. Perhaps this was a bad day to take these 'before pics' but here they come... (they are headless and the timestamp is wrong on my camera. I haven't showered and got dressed yet because its 5 a.m but at least I finally got them done)

[246.6 lbs]This was the dress I was considering wearing for my interview but find some sort of black jacket to formalize it (and some tall SPANX haha)

You might have noticed the hearts on my mirror. They have been there for a few monthes. I put them there as a reminder to try and love myself more everyday...

[246.6 lbs]This next set I chose because the shirt is one of those clingy varieties and it does not hide ANY chunk. Also you might notice that these pants don't even do up, so I was hoping to use them to better gauge how I am doing. ( Please ignore the panties, ha! I will understand if you run away..)There its all there for you to see..

[246.6 lbs] Okay, this set is rock bottom, and frankly the pants scare me, but at least they are buttoned.

Sorry for the exposure but its out of the way now, and we can pretend this viewing never happened? I will probably find every excuse to blog now and get these off the front page... so don't be suprised!!

Monday, February 22, 2010

Ten Down & More Good News!

Good news! I lost another 4.4 pounds this week (over 10 total), but even better news? I got a call from one of the schools I applied to. I have an interview this Saturday to enter an Education Program. Yes I am one more step closer a huge dream of mine: Teaching!

I was hoping interviews would be next month and also that I would be down more weight so I could pick out a nice new outfit. I have mixed feelings though because I would love to still get a new outfit but it will get too big too fast to enjoy it for long. However I do always feel more confident when I get to walk into a place wearing a nice and new outfit and that just might pay off...

So I am WEIGHING the pro's and cons. I would love something like this paired with a great pencil skirt...Or I could dig through my clothes and try to find something old... Decisions...decisions!!

Another doctors appointment tomorrow. The kitties are still enjoying my treadmill more than I am...

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Winter Break (Yay!)... Excercise Lag (Boo!)

This week I have done pretty well and I am looking forward to weighing in tomorrow but I'm very dissapointed because I haven't been able to 'step up' in the excercise department. I have developed an infected sweat gland in my armpit and its not pretty! I don't wear a lot of deoderant in the winter because I never sweat, and it takes a lot to make me sweat. I'm alwaayyys the cold one so I don't know how I got this way but I'm nervous about the doctor visit and what they will say regarding work outs. Anyhow its quite painful and I don't really want to aggravate it (if its possible to do so) by excercise. I am thinking I will just go for long walks everyday this week because its supposed to be cold (that way I won't sweat)

My cats are getting good use of the treadmill however. My computer decided to not allow me to put the pictures on my laptop, so I borrowed this from google, but you get the picture... (Oh how I love you google..)

On a good note, I have only used 3 of 35 flex points this week (I decided that I had to have 1/2 a serving of Baked Chips while watching the Amazing Race tonight) and I feel like I am adjusting well to the plan while going into week 3. My pants are starting to get a bit looser so thats a good sign!

It is Spring Break this week so I was hoping to intensify my work outs but I don't think this will happen now because of my gland issue. So frustrating. I will also face a challenge with a roadtrip that I am gonna go on for a few days but luckily I have a support system going with me who is also on WW. Eating on the go can be challenging but we are going to pack and plan ahead! However we're visiting other campuses so the pub situation could pose a challenge as well. I'm a picky drinker and love the sugary cocktails! (Uh oh!)

See you tomorrow for the WI results!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

The Beginning

The change has been on the horizon for some time, but I have decided that the time for change is now. I began my healthy expedition nearly one week ago and I am excited to change my life. I have made far too many excuses in my life about not having the time to really eat, excercise, and live right but have now realized that it is important to make the time.

My self esteem is at an all time low and I weigh the most I ever have. I have come to the conclusion that I really need to feel more confident and less anxious about myself and hopefully by getting a healthy lifestyle going, I will receive a confidence boost and my anxiety will decrease.

I am a 23 year old female who will be graduating from University in May, and I am hoping get my Bachelor of Education started in September. In a society with obesity on the rise I believe that if I am going to be a teacher, than I should be able to better promote an healthy lifestyle if I am actually part of one myself.

I have recently become addicted to following Blogs and thought what a wonderful way it would be to keep track of my progress and meet people who are in a similar situation! I have begun the Weight Watchers Flex Plan and so far it is going really well. It seems like the right plan for me because I can truly enjoy the foods I like in moderation. Hopefully this will keep me on track!

So what next? Time to get the treadmill back out from where it is hiding behind the Christmas decorations and get moving!